Related. But Not Sisters.

I want my sister back. Even though we never had the perfect relationship we still knew how to have a good time. We used to do the weirdest thing together and always have a good time. Yes we had our fights and some were worse then others but we still could makeup but now its like we can't. We both live with two different parents and don't talk to eachother at school. Whenever I'm at my dads we never talk and its always awkward when I'm hear cause I feel like the old one out. I had only been here once for dinner and we all hung out and had a good time and the next time was my first time here sleeping over and we had a blast, we stayed up all night and made funny videos. But then once I started seeing her stauts and it looked like she had something going on I go worried and told my mom. I didn't say anything other then that I was worried about her and wanted to talk to her about it but we never had the type of relationship that heart to hearts would happen. I mean I told her a lot about my life and I told her somethings that not even my friends know about I even told her that I has lost my v-card to my boyfriend before I told my parents. But when it came to her she said nothing ever happened in her life and nothing was intrested. I got the short end of the stick. If I could have our relationship back I would love it even if I was the only one telling her stuff it would be a start. It would mean something. It makes me cry all the time that I don't have someone to fall back on other then my mom. Its just the way my life is. I really do hope that we can actually have a good relationship in tthe future and she will understand that I really do care about her. I want her to know that she can trust me and tell me anything and I wont tell a soul. I feel she is under the devil right now and I want to pull her out. Everyone tells me that we will have a relationship in the future and my sister will see that she is being dumb. And will come around all I can do is pray to god that she see's that my mom and I love her and want the best for her every day. Its hard to see my life without her I wish we could do things like sisters do like go get our nails done but that is just going to have to wait until later for us. One day it will happen but for right now the ball is in her court and I will be waiting off side until she needs me to help her play.