Everyday since second semester I was called a guys name by my math teacher, I didn't take it to heart at first because I knew that he was just joking around and that he would cut it out soon. But he never did if anything it only go worse and it made my selfesteam go down a lot! Even my close guy friends would start calling me guy names like "Emilio", "Ameal" and things like that. It started to eat away at me and going to math class was a nightmare. This went on for a month before I started leaving class to go to the washroom and would really go cry. And when I got home and knew I was alone I would cry again. Finally I desiced to tell my mom that what my math teacher had started and really hurt me and was effecting me in a big way. Now he looks at me like like I'm a tattle tale and now just calls me Emily. As far as my friends only a few know how it really did hurt me, the others look at me like nothings wrong. I'm learning to deal with what people say because not everyone is going to like me. And I know who to keep by my side so I don't think bad on myself.
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Down below there are something that girls think to themselves everyday. We all have problem that we wish we could change but lets face it no one puts it better Gaga, we were born this way! Everyone is different and you can't try and be someone else or evern look like them it wont work. God made you the way you are today for a reason what that reason my be, beats me I'm still trying to figure it out.
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My body isny't perfect
I don't walk with condfidence
I get into fights with my parents and friends
Some nights I'd rather be by myself then out partying
I cry over the smallest things sometimes
Theres some days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs
Sometimes I try to condvince myself that things are ok when there not
I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful
I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures
There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep
I think that I'm not good enough
I'm imperfect, but perfectly me.
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