I can do this, I can do this.

I want to get healthy and fit not just for summer but for every other day. And so far it isn't going the best. I didn't eat healthy at all today and I feel really heavy at that moment. I say this every time but I wish I was capable to do this without any problem but the truth is that its HARD. Losing weight isn't something that I can just set my mind to drive into without a plan. I need to figure things not just when I'm going to work out but what things I should be eating and what I really need to say away from. The last time that I tried to get my body and health to the way I want was about a month or so ago. I felt amazing because I was running and doing fun workouts that made me happy about my body but then all of a sudden something happeneds in my life that makes me not foucs on the end result. Whenever I try really hard to not foucs on the issues in my life I end up failing. I need away that I can stick to the goals that I have planed for the summer so when I come back in the fall I can have a new body, mind and spirt. I feel more depremined then ever this summer to make a difference in my life and teach myself that a lot of work goes a long way and it will help me for the rest of my life. The only thing standing in my way right now is getting there. I know its something I really want and I WILL do anything and everything to get myself there.